NOTE TO SELF and for those who have a great HABIT  recalling the BAD times and playing it OVER and OVER again...

Take time to remember the GOOD times and PLAY it over and over again...
The last 24 hours...

I am grateful for Arvacska and Babuci.
Two powerful WOMEN, who try to live life with no FEAR.
I had the most AMAZING night learning, laughing, being!
Friends are IMPORTANT. ( Thanks Chiara, Ilze and Mhairi for thinking of me - I love you) xxx

I am grateful for the summer SKY.
DARK like my DEEPEST corners - filled with STARS,  like little HOPES shining trough our SOULS. I smiled and realized that without DARKNESS we cannot see the STARS.Without our deepest corners our hopes cannot shine through....

I am grateful for the 1800s room that held my dream.
The VULGAR painting with Pinoccio’s “ nose” (COCK) greeting the woman’s blossoming VAGINA….

I LOVED walking home bare footed…reminded me of Thailand! One day I will go back again….

I am grateful for my MOTHER’S smile when I arrived home 12 hours later then expected (11am lunchtime, INSTEAD of 11pm last night).

I am grateful for my mum’s cappuccino (mmmmmm, I can still taste the coffee…reminds me of Lisbet and Theresa, who taught me how to make the BEST cappuccino with fluffy cream , CINNAMON and chocolate powder – ENJOY the simple pleasures of human existence.

I am grateful for the ENERGY that the 3 UNINVITED relatives brought with them THIS MORNING…. They were the BEST surprise and BLESSING. The house was filled with  their LOVE, HOPE, TEARS and LAUGHTER.

I was reminded that we are all the SAME in our DIFFERENCES :)

I am happy that ROZSI looked in my eyes and said:
“ Oh, Tekla I can SEE everything. You are so OPEN. Too open! You can get HURT. Maybe don’t look too long in peoples' eyes and BLINK away, otherwise they will know and see how to TRICK you.”

All I said. “ I decided to OPEN my EYES, HEART and ARMS a while ago….” She nodded…”That is the true way of LIVING”. 

Well, for sure I have experienced some HIGHS and LOWS in my 30 years, but I regret NOTHING....well, maybe one thing: Why did I not tease mum a bit longer about the CONDOM on the flute ;) ?

We all HUGGED and said goodbye 10 times….after which MUM, BABUCI AND I sat down by the PIANO and mum started playing.

This is NOT MUM. Just the song....My friend and I were singing like there is NOOOO TOMORROW...Oh Amelie.... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C93Yft3bU_Q&feature=related and I DANCED like a child who has no fear….. after which I pretended that I am a conductor bringing sweet music to the Albert Hall.... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N00XKtROddc

THE PHONE RANG! I jumped into another dimension.
It was G. He told me that he LOVES me….

If you ALLOW yourself and others to GROW with little expectation MAGIC will unfold.

Well, sometimes GOOD things come ALL at the same time...or MAYBE the good things are ALWAYS HERE, we just choose not to see them (?)

Today I choose to OPEN my EYES!

126 DAYS

I found this today "You are a talented writer, too bad you didn't continue also sharing here your thoughts. There are people who care and read you"
 
I was reminded that I must write and not go into another 18 weeks of silence....so here I am....This post is for you Anonymous. Thank you for your words. They came exactly when I needed them.I always believed that we only need ONE person to believe in us and that is enough to set the fire.....

126 days since my last post....
126 days. FRIENDS became strangers. STRANGERS became friends.
 New places became my HOME and my homes became my PRISON.

I traveled from France to Italy, from Norway to Holland....from Holland to France and Transylvania....On foot, by plane, boat, bus, car, bike.....and I learned the same lesson over and over again:

LOVE is knowing who you are.

LOVE is accepting it.
LOVE is sharing it.
LOVE is forgetting who we are.

LOVE is knowing who the other is.
LOVE is accepting the other.
LOVE is realising that the other is you.
LOVE is.

 Good night xx